Welcome to my reckoning. I’ve never been afraid of pain. The truth is, I love it. I crave the anticipation of it, the intensity of it, and the way it strips away everything except the sensation of being completely present in a moment. I checked into the Bedroom of the Reckoning because I want to hurt — I willingly seek out that exquisite edge where pain becomes pleasure, surrender becomes freedom, and every sensation feels deserved. I have more money than I could ever spend, so I spared no expense to get what I ultimately crave. The purple walls, the decadent surroundings, the elaborate rituals—none of it is excessive to me. Pain feels so satisfying. Every sensation becomes part of my private ritual of punishment and surrender. I don't run from it. I lean into pain. I welcome physical pain. What about you, do you enjoy pain sensations?